My Lyme Day Today

      Today has been kind of hard. I started in on low grade fevers a couple of days ago. Lower back pain and mid spine pain. I can now tell if the pain is deep in the spine or inflammation around the disks. That's how long I have been experiencing this.
     Today is the kind of day I don't even tell my family about anymore. I just slug through and pretend I feel OK. They are so sick of my being sick, I feel like I don't want to say it anymore. I feel like a sub-par (to put it mildly) mother and wife and daughter. I can't be as active and energetic as I was way back when they were younger.
     Today I have to pray, lay, and fight.
     Today I need to remind myself that for decades I could not walk without feeling like I had no feet and I was walking on my exposed ankle bones. ouch. I had no appetite, I slept hours and hours and hours. I was confused, got lost driving, got pretty depressed and discouraged. Every joint in my body ached. I had headaches for days at a time. Etc., etc.. I was slowly dying, being eaten alive by parasites and bacteria. I spent many a night on the couch begging God to lift this from me. There was more than one tear.
    Today I am remembering that God lead me to a doctor who is helping me.
    Today was kind of a good day, in retrospect.