up, down, all around

     I should be writing a post but I am too tired. I am in the middle of my last week of 'holiday' from treatment cycles. I have done so well! I have to keep telling myself how it used to be. I keep forgetting. Give me a good day or two, and my bad days are all but forgotten. So, why am I so tired? A bunch of reasons I suppose. Most of all, I have been super busy. Which is great, esp. since I used to have a much shorter 'shelf life' than recently. The biggest fallback to being busy is that it exacerbates symptoms if I am not careful. Yesterday I cleaned my poor house all day and fell asleep for the night at 7:00. Today I woke a little nauseous, but still went out. Tonight I am nauseous and tired and sweaty and clammy, and yucky. Monday I start my new treatment cycle. It will get better or worse, I don't know until I do it. I dread it and yet it saves me. Like Chemo for someone with cancer I suppose. You dread it, but it can make you better.
   Push through it Amy, you can do it.
   Goodnight. And pay no attention to the fact I make no sense.